Little tiny brain cells
leaking from my brain
each and every time luv
you made it very clear
I have such great value
oh yes so much I do
to be the only one luv
the only one for you.
The only one for you luv
to put into my place
make sure its clear to me
no love for me you’ll waste
You chose me extra special
to be your kicking dog
the very one you use luv
to empty all your hate
you crawled into my head luv
and kicked around my brain
took it for so long luv
both sun and in the rain
only to find you return luv
to kick at me again
I ran to hidden corners
I drove away by car
I ate and then I starved
I cried and broke my chain
I stabbed my womb till numb luv
I broke that narrow wall
I screamed at you luv
I dug my very grave
I told my friends who left me
I called my family few
until
my only step that’s left me
was live inside my brain
the place you’d ransacked
chucked and laughed
while I vomited and gasped
I hid inside my brain luv
so obvious you found
me still in body and reclined
no breath or pulse to find
I hid inside my brain luv
forgot the world out there
I lived in broken thoughts
and crushed and cracked despair
I picked up one and then the next
my cells no longer worked
no single thought could I complete
that you did not defeat
I guess I’d say you won luv
for I no longer care
what the fuck is said luv
or where I go somewhere
the days the same as night now
I do not know or care
I have no feelings left luv
that you can slap or beat
so look me in the eye luv
while I kiss this shiny gun
I’m gone before you know it
and I’m flying to the sun
I couldn’t give a fuck now
if I’m found or if I’m not
my death is what I have now
to finish and complete
as long as I can leave you
and finally get away
to never have to listen
to a word you have to say
you got your wish to crush me
to make me less than you
so thank you for your luv luv
and may you not repeat
your brain dance upon me
or any one else as sweet.
Poem
What a mystery you are
