poem
It wove around my chest and belly
each inward stab
wind stab repeat, wind stab repeat, wind stab repeat
and there you are looking at me
can’t you see it when you look at me!
The light drained from my eyes, my brow, my lips
my mouth curves up in a one sided smile and all
the while you look at me and don’t see
Bitterness, bitterness, bitterness
you stupidly give me that fake love you smile
thinking that I all the while
I don’t see it , right there, that fake behind the eyes stare
right There.
I look at my bitterness and say “Anyone can see he doesn’t care!”
Bitterness, bitternesssss, its just you and me
how I’ve held you and molded you until people glare
at my green eyes no more
“They were green,yes they were, then they grayed and grew still.
with bitterness, bitterness, bitterness
until black like coal molded hard with shine
my bitterness grew and straighten my spine so
now I don’t care if you come or you go
bitterness, bitterness, bitterness lets sit right here
and lets make it clear that nothing that’s said or done comes back
to haunt me or hurt me
nothing like that
go ahead, say what you want
stomp on me , shame me, blame all of me
but my bitterness sees every minute thing
you’ve done to me.
Bitterness, bitternessss, bitternesss
It’s grown quieter up in my head
mostly emotions and feelings have gone and instead
its my bitterness just like I said.
Bitterness bitterness bitterness…
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